I'd Lie. I'd Lie Until the Day I Die.

I haven't written in a while, and for that I appologize. I thought I'd write a poem off of the top of my head.... yes, I've been listening to Taylor Swift again, 'I'd Lie'. :) Here goes nothin'.

It hurts like a sucker punch
That takes your breath away
And it feels like a warm bath
On a cold day
It makes me blink my eyes
Everytime you come into view
Like I finally realize
That it's really you

Wow. That's awful. I like the first couple of lines, though. Yes, I'm all angsty today. I don't suppose that you know what it's like to love someone so much that it hurts so much, yet so little? Like- you love this person so much that even though you can never be together and they're with someone else, you can be genuinely happy, because this person is happy? Yeah. That feeling.

So if telling him would ruin his day, then I won't. But something he said, made me think that he knows- if he does, he doesn't seem worse off for it, so I'll leave him to it.

Anyway, if him knowing hurts him, then I'll lie. I'll lie until the day I die...well, sort of. I promised myself that I would tell him if he ever got ingaged. Just in case, because I could never live with myself if I let him go forever without him even knowing.

With these depressing thoughts I live you, thinking that I am pathetic. Oh well, maybe I am. I don't know. I don't really care what you think. If this is pathetic, then I like it, a lot.

Love,

J