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I don't feel any older. I feel...the same, and slightly more depressed. Actually, my birthday is always depressing for me because I hate change, and getting older is a big change. I guess it's that I'm scared of change. Everything is, if not good, at least bareble. If things change then there is a chance that it can get betterm but also a chance that it could get worse. I am a coward and not particularly willing to take that chance.

I am watching friends right now anc can't keep my mind on this. I'll post *later*.

J